I do not think i can explain to you who i am because i do not understand who i am. I aspire complexity, but lack effort. I want to follow my morals, but the wrong thing is so appealing. I have a well understanding of how people work. I manipulate people and put them in situations where i know what the outcome will be. As i right this i feel like a jerk, but i think i'm just saying what others hide and neglect to put forth, so i know this will comfort some. I do however like entertaining others. I highly enjoy communication and love the enhancements in technology to increase forms of communication. I love my family. Every member, i love Whitley no matter what we go through or may encounter. I feel her drifting from me, but i refuse to let go. Guess that makes me selfish huh? This sort of feels like a note, but is so appropriate for me to try and analyze who i believe i am. I am very friendly and would not be able to make it through my days without my amazing friends, who mainly reside on first floor best. For once in my life, i feel in ways compatible with my company. They see the same viewpoints as me and as weird as i am(prepherably) they seem to accept and embrace me. I know this is kinda jumpy but its about me so what. Let me see... I love sports, just adore them. If i could not play them professionally i always wanted to talk about them. On my show, Real- Hip Hop i am able to address this want. I do not know what i want of life. I mean what i want. Some may state how they want to be viewed or remembered without realizing that they do not know their own desires. I want to figure out what i need. I have been so exposed to the american dream that i have lost track of what i want for my life!! I am very open to others. I will often lie to you about how i feel about you, because i find no need for negativity at certain moments and people do not accept the truth about themselves. I belittle most around me and few wreak the actions of the poor me/ the true me. Most do not know how i truly feel about them. I am trying to take a step down from this, but it is hard when you have been conditioned to be the one who will make it. The one who will set the bar, the creme of the crop. I know what it is! My about me, i want success. I desire it- for me and my successors. I want to be able to just come home at the end of the day and reflect.
Ok I can't get to the relvance part to comment. But yes why the hell does everything have to be accepted by the majority anyway. Clearly there only a small percentage of ppl that think outside the box. Meaning that the majority of ppl is only going to accept the things that have been pushed into their heads by masterminds who determine their every moves.So considering that. Is it really "generally accepted" or does the average person leave acceptance and relevance to the enlightened ones and then copy cat.
ReplyDeletedamn martin i agree. I mean we accept things without question. I mite be speaking blasphemous, but even religion. We believe some really far fetched things just because we are told to. I mean for the most part i would say the education system and media tell us what is relevant and all we ever do is except. Copy Cat world is the one most know, but me i refuse to live in shadows.
ReplyDeleteSo What exactly made you ask that question in particular
ReplyDeleteIdk random thinking like who decides what comes on the idiot box or is published in textbooks. Idk, i mean the lives of many are placed in the hands of few, like you said the elite. And they control us.
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